Unfixed
Sometimes the dance of words mirrors the dance of life and we call it Poetry, and sometimes it’s the other way round - events seeming to reflect things we have said to ourselves or others, or things we have written; not because we are prescient, but because there are patterns that repeat, and underlying truths we instinctively perceive and sometimes even articulate… and then the experience itself becomes the Poetry.
We are wired to look for patterns - that’s how we have survived. Living with hunter gatherers taught me that, at least…
So like all Poets I go out hunting myself, and gathering - images, experiences, sounds and scents. Joys and griefs too - my own and those of people I meet. Some will always be private, but the best will be prepared, presented, and now shared around this electronic campfire of bits and bytes that all of us huddle about, seeking warmth.
The natural world draws me and informs almost everything I write but I can’t ignore urban landscapes - these strange blends of the natural, the constructed and the simply left behind, all cold welded together in a hard amalgam, bedded down.
And when I’m in a city I’m always looking for the gaps in the joints, the unintended interstices where function fails and unexpected things happen; the places where things that are lost - and people too - can sometimes be found.
Some things are ugly. Some things are beautiful.
Many are both.
Crossing the park
I came across two
young men, hitting up.
They’d picked
a good day for it.
The sun was shining
on Throsby Creek with that fierce
benevolence
you only find
on a fine Summer’s day after rain.
The air was clear
as the blood in my veins.
The swings in the playground
were fraught with children
screaming in delight while
patient parents pushed
and caught and
placid pelicans sailed on
down the creek
regardless
through that bright air like the fleet of Spain
leaning into the trade wind,
content in knowledge of a new world.
The two young men sat
watching it all,
their backs to the brawl of Maitland road
their faces tilted to the sun.
They seemed companionable,
in their cargo pants and
matching blue checked shirts - almost
vulnerable,
sitting like that with outstretched legs
and a faint breeze ruffling their hair - like
overgrown dolls,
or teddy bears.
I didn’t mean to
stare but
I don’t think they saw me.
Their minds were on other things.
I barely noticed the needles
and would have passed by
except for a certain
delicateness
in the way they looked down,
hunched over slightly as the
fine steel slid home -
freighted with rare
spice from a far off land,
and all the
weight
that being separate brings.
I would not have known but
for the air of mutual
concern they exhibited -
which made me look closer
in time to see the needles withdrawn,
the rubbing of the arm,
the slight relaxation of the spine
as they sat back again
to watch a new sun,
new park,
new trees blossoming
and children playing such as
they had not seen for years,
except
in dreams of childhood.
I stood for a moment watching them,
already locked outside their scene
and insignificant,
and then walked on,
through park and sun and children
and all the clean blue waves of my own life
rippling out there on Throsby Creek
where the black industrial mud bubbles
quietly,
unseen and underneath.















“They seemed companionable,
in their cargo pants and
matching blue checked shirts - almost
vulnerable,
sitting like that with outstretched legs
and a faint breeze ruffling their hair like
overgrown dolls,
or teddy bears.”
I feel for them. These words, “dolls” and “teddy bears,” make me see these two as lost boys—never to grow up, never lucky enough to grow old.
I had an insight moment partway through, when you described the boys as they were preparing to make the choice to move away from togetherness and into the peculiar and seductive solitude of an altered state. I make no judgements of these choices. God knows I have made a few. Psychedelics are moving into a phase where they can clearly be therapeutic and if they could help and I was in confusion and fear, I probably would give it another go.
But for now, almost every choice I make favors connection, and I also lean into optimism irrespective of my probably naivete. I see these urban compositions of creature and nature...I don't know, David...is there a beauty to you there? Do they capture your eye because they are just peculiar and provocative, or is there embedded hope and beauty in the way that Nature patiently keeps trying to reclaim her own?