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He lies on the Jester's cart - Intro

Apr 1, 2025 • MaDMan

the Grey - Prologue

Nov 2, 2025 • MaDMan

Nov 18, 2025

Flesh and Spirit

Dec 30, 2025 • MaDMan

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Meditations

Flesh and Spirit

How order emerges from below: ant colonies, consciousness, cities, and the possibility of collective minds and spirits.

Dec 30, 2025 • MaDMan

Videogame Speedrunning and Magic in the world

What speedrunners call “arbitrary code execution” looks, from inside the game, like ritual magic: precise movements, timed invocations, and offerings…

Nov 25, 2025 • MaDMan

On the therapy of writing

What happens to the writer when a book becomes a vessel for what they cannot consciously face?

Nov 15, 2025 • MaDMan

The significance of Satan

a symbolic analysis

Aug 18, 2025 • MaDMan

Apologia of the weak grip

As I recollect myself into the boundaries of my own body and mind, I reckon the truth and the bitter taste it brings with her. Everything make sense…

Apr 6, 2025 • MaDMan

the Grey - Introduction

the Grey - Prologue

The awakening of consciousness and the birth of Free Will

Nov 2, 2025 • MaDMan

the Grey - Chapter I - I

I am. Always have been. the neutral observer, all-seeing eye.

Nov 1, 2025 • MaDMan

The Qabbalistic journey - Lucifer and Mikael

Welcome to the first installment of the Qabbalistic journey, where we explore the Philosophical/Psychological/Metaphysical journey of the main…

Oct 25, 2025

He lies on the Jester's cart

[START HERE] He lies on the Jester's cart

A literary thriller of Love, Guilt, and the Ghosts we create

Nov 3, 2025 • MaDMan

He lies on the Jester's cart - Intro

A literary thriller of Love, Guilt, and the Ghosts we create.

Apr 1, 2025 • MaDMan

He lies on the Jester's cart - 1

A literary thriller of Love, Guilt, and the Ghosts we create.

Apr 1, 2025 • MaDMan

He lies on the Jester's cart - 2

A literary thriller of Love, Guilt, and the Ghosts we create.

Apr 1, 2025 • MaDMan

He lies on the Jester's cart - 3

A literary thriller of Love, Guilt, and the Ghosts we create.

Apr 1, 2025 • MaDMan

Odes to the Divine Feminine

a poem of whiteness in ode to the Divine Feminine

Jan 18

a poem of blackness in ode to the Divine Feminine

Nov 18, 2025

Mother of mothers

a poem of blackness in ode to the Divine Feminine

Jun 11, 2025 • MaDMan

Writer's invocation

a poem of whiteness in ode to the Divine Feminine

Jun 4, 2025 • MaDMan

a poem of blackness in ode to the Divine Feminine

May 27, 2025 • MaDMan

the Grey - Part I - Revelation and Reawakening

the Grey - Chapter II - Reawakening pt.1

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

Aug 18, 2025 • MaDMan

the Grey - Chapter III - Chiara pt.1

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

Aug 18, 2025 • MaDMan

the Grey - Chapter IV - Darkness pt.1

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

Aug 18, 2025

the Grey - Chapter V - Thoughts pt.1

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

Aug 18, 2025

the Grey - Chapter VI - Revelation pt.1

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

Aug 18, 2025

the Grey - Part III - War

the Grey - Chapter XVIII.I - Gibraltar pt.19

To find peace, at last.

Feb 8

the Grey - Chapter XVIII.I - Gibraltar pt.18

We are going home. Are we going home, Esnar?

Jan 25

the Grey - Chapter XVIII.I - Gibraltar pt.17

We retreat on the ice sheet. Crone raises a barrier upon us. Are we safe here?

Jan 17

the Grey - Chapter XVIII.I - Gibraltar pt.16

They take Sahaquiel's heads from me. This battle still claims me.

Jan 10

the Grey - Chapter XVIII.I - Gibraltar pt.15

The first time I saw an Angel fall.

Jan 3

the Grey - Qabbalistic Journey

The Tree of Knowledge

Exploring the Qliphoth—the Tree of Knowledge/Death—as Kabbalah’s Nightside engine: Lilith to Thaumiel

Nov 10, 2025

The Qabbalistic journey - Lucifer and Mikael

Welcome to the first installment of the Qabbalistic journey, where we explore the Philosophical/Psychological/Metaphysical journey of the main…

Oct 25, 2025

The Tree of Life

Basics of the Qabbalistic journey

Oct 19, 2025

The Qabbalistic journey - Introduction

Start here: The Grey’s Qabbalistic map—consciousness, Tree of Life vs. Tree of Knowledge, right/left‑hand paths, and the journey from unity to return.

Oct 19, 2025

the Grey worldbuilding

the Grey - Writing progress - 2025 review

Time to talk progress on the writing of the Grey and goal setting for 2026

Jan 6 • MaDMan

the Grey - Chapter XVIII.I - Gibraltar Warplans

Read about the battle here ⬇

Sep 7, 2025

the Grey - Characters list

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

May 2, 2025

the Grey - Inspirations and essential bibliography - Literature

A Philosophical Fantasy of Metaphysical Awakening, Free Will, and the Coming Apocalyptic War Between Angels and Demons

Apr 26, 2025 • MaDMan

MaDMan says

MaDMan says

On a quest to Re-enchant ourselves. Exploring world and mind, searching for the link between Truth, Beauty and Good.

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